"You said you would, and you didn't."
His brown eyes peered at me over his blanket.
Another day had passed
and the promise I had made the night before had gone unkept.
"I'm so sorry, Levi. I don't know why I forgot.
I just got busy."
Busy.
What an empty excuse.
The use of it sounded as lame as it felt.
He is the patient one.
He asks for things quietly,
and then his older sister needs help with her schoolwork,
or his baby sister makes yet another mess that demands immediate response.
I feel as badly the next night when he says it again,
"Mom, why didn't you do what I asked?"
I don't even want to say it again,
but I do.
"I'm so sorry, Levi.
I really am.
I will really try to do it tomorrow."
I want to explain to him that my piles to be done don't seem to be dwindling.
The seat cushions for the porch chairs still need to be finished.
The living room wall still needs a final coat,
as does the trim.
There are countless other projects waiting,
as well as all the other usual housework chores.
But somehow,
I know all those explanations will just be words uttered to him,
words that say,
"Today, you just weren't important enough."
But somehow,
I know all those explanations will just be words uttered to him,
words that say,
"Today, you just weren't important enough."
And so tomorrow,
I determine I will do it.
I determine I will do it.
Tomorrow I will take the time to show my son
that he is more important than all the things that keep pushing him out.
Because as little as some things may seem to me now...
I know they are big to him.
And the look in his eyes as he watches me create
the promised wonder...
the "Ooooh," he says as he twiddles his little fingers in deep concentration as he watches it form,
and the glee in his eyes as I hear him,
"Wow! It really looks like it, Mom!"
Then he looks at it throughout the day,
up on the shelf away from his little sister's crushing hands.
He smiles at me
because I actually remembered,...
and I know he is worth it.
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